Derailed

I was derailed for a couple weeks, but now I am back on track (or I can truthfully say I'm probably not quite there yet, but I have recognized there is a problem and I am working on it). Step 1, admit that there's a problem, right? Sometimes it is easy to lose sight of what is important.
Right now, as you know, my career and my future is the most important thing to me, or at least I am trying to make it that way. The last couple of weeks I have been so caught up in personal things in my stupid, little teenage world (I am normally completely focused on hair, nothing else. I'm usually on the outside looking in when it comes to the stupid teenage life stuff... but for some reason I recently decided to try to act my age and be normal. That just creates problems.) I've also been uninspired. In school I find myself straightening and curling my mannequin over and over because I don't feel like doing anything else. I'm never the first one to volunteer. I take breaks instead of working straight through. At night when I'm at home, rather than working on my work book, or researching new hairstyles and techniques, I stare at Facebook until the wee hours of the morning. Why do I feel the need to read the emo quotes that people post? (I post them too, I'm just sayin'...) What the Hell is wrong with me? I can't get "derailed". It's just not an option. My goals are too important to me to lose sight of them that quickly! It's my life.
And the"I don't give a shit" attitude has got to go. (That's a little exaggeration. I always care... just sometimes less than others). It sucks because The first couple months of school I was sooo positive. Nothing was going to stop me. I was really trying to live by "Be Nice or Else!" Now that's kinda out. But I'm totally bringing it back! Yay! I am glad I am able to realize when I am being ridiculous.