A needed update

So I haven't had an entry since December, and that entry doesn't really count. So much has happened since then and now that I would be completely overwhelmed to write about it all. I'll give you a quick run through though...

I went to "Caper" in Vegas a couple moths ago. It was freaking amazing. I had sooo much fun. For those of you who aren't "Paul Mitchelly", Caper is a convention for Paul Mitchell Future Professionals. It was 2 fun-filled days of education, entertainment and motivational speakers. I could seriously write a small novel about my experience there, but for the sake of time I will just tell you to view my Facebook pictures to see what it was like and recommend that if you are ever a Future Professional...definitely go.

A few weeks ago I helped out with Burton's Demo Tour at Seven Springs. Since Paul Mitchell is one of their sponsors they had a tent set up giving away our Tea Tree line samples. I got to help out and I am so glad I did. It was a ton of fun. I got to hang out with some cool Paul Mitchell people and I got to snow board for the first time. I was actually decent! I can't wait to do it again next Winter.

As far as school goes, I am in "Creative" now. Creative is the final phase at my school. I graduate in July...so about 3-4 more months! I have mixed feelings about that. After I graduate I am thrown into the "real world". That's a little scary. I'm totally siked though, I love what I am doing so much...and the opportunities I'm being presented with are absolutely amazing. I am soooo glad I chose this. I can't see me being involved in any other industry, ever. My advice to everyone is to do what you want with your life, regardless of what you think others will think. Follow your heart and be passionate. I don't work, I play and create and make my dreams come true. Doesn't that sound incredible?

Soooo that's my mini update. I have been pretty busy with school, volunteering for things like fashion shows and musicals, to write as often as I used to. I'll update if anything new and exciting happens! Peace, Love and Happiness!




KMC

Let's not have hope. Let's have faith.

My Embarrassing Youtube Video...

Sooo we had to make a Youtube video for a contest in school. Whoever gets the most 5 star ratings gets in the top 10, then celebrity judges like John Paul Dejoria vote for the top 3. In the video we have to say why it's cool to be a Paul Mitchell Future Professional. i have never made a Youtube video before, so the editing process was not easy for me and I repeat myself in the beginning...which makes it awkward. The whole video is kinda awkward, but it gets the point across. I don't expect to win because I know other people will put a lot more effort into it than I did. If you want to watch it to see why I think it's cool to be a Paul Mitchell Future Professional you can click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4kvB0BPw2GU

Derailed

I was derailed for a couple weeks, but now I am back on track (or I can truthfully say I'm probably not quite there yet, but I have recognized there is a problem and I am working on it). Step 1, admit that there's a problem, right? Sometimes it is easy to lose sight of what is important.
Right now, as you know, my career and my future is the most important thing to me, or at least I am trying to make it that way. The last couple of weeks I have been so caught up in personal things in my stupid, little teenage world (I am normally completely focused on hair, nothing else. I'm usually on the outside looking in when it comes to the stupid teenage life stuff... but for some reason I recently decided to try to act my age and be normal. That just creates problems.) I've also been uninspired. In school I find myself straightening and curling my mannequin over and over because I don't feel like doing anything else. I'm never the first one to volunteer. I take breaks instead of working straight through. At night when I'm at home, rather than working on my work book, or researching new hairstyles and techniques, I stare at Facebook until the wee hours of the morning. Why do I feel the need to read the emo quotes that people post? (I post them too, I'm just sayin'...) What the Hell is wrong with me? I can't get "derailed". It's just not an option. My goals are too important to me to lose sight of them that quickly! It's my life.
And the"I don't give a shit" attitude has got to go. (That's a little exaggeration. I always care... just sometimes less than others). It sucks because The first couple months of school I was sooo positive. Nothing was going to stop me. I was really trying to live by "Be Nice or Else!" Now that's kinda out. But I'm totally bringing it back! Yay! I am glad I am able to realize when I am being ridiculous.

Scattered...

Life changes so much. It is a serious game. You win and you lose. It's like when you play Mancala. You pick up pieces, you drop off pieces. You take your opponents pieces, your opponent takes pieces from you. You keep going around and around the board, unsure of the outcome. Then you run out of pieces and the player that has the most pieces in their large shallow hole at the end of the board wins. That's my complex outlook on life right now.



I have changed. For good or bad, I am not sure. I used to have close relationships. I used to know my priorities and they were in check. I knew my limits, I knew my goals, I knew my future. It was all planned out. I was simple and focused.

Now I can barely say I have relationships. My priorities have changed, my limits have changed, my goals have changed, and I see my future differently. My plan isn't the same. I am still focused, but I am not so simple.



I am going through things I never thought I would have to go through. I am feeling things I never thought I would feel. I am experiencing things that I never thought I would experience. I guess it's a part of growing up that I have chosen to take part in. I was not at all prepared for this.



I stand back, look at my life, shake my head and say "What the Hell?" Then I feel bad I said "Hell" and half heartily apologize to God. ( Btw, this isn't a sob story. I am not complaining about my life and I am not super depressed or anything, I am just sooo confused. I am trying to put it into perspective.)



I am sorry to all the people I have hurt while going through this change. I didn't mean for it to happen this way. I didn't know it would. My intention is never to hurt anyone. I don't think I am a cruel person, just selfish sometimes. I have no boundaries. I have dreams and goals and I want to reach them. I am not sure if what I am doing is right. I'm not even 100% sure of what it is that I want. I am young and ignorant. I am learning as I go. Sometimes I follow my heart, sometimes I follow my head and sometimes I follow nothing and end up lost.



What ever is meant to be, will be.

The truth may set you free, but it usually beats the crap out of someone else...

I heard this expression on a TV show (Mercy) tonight. It really hit close to home and I hate that it is true. Sometimes you just have to be honost with yourself, selfish for your well-being. You have to be true to yourself, even if it hurts someone else. The fact of the matter is, if you aren't being truthful with that person, you are hurting them, or "beating the crap out of them" regardless. It's a lose, lose situation and it sucks. But it is what it is.
Although, Sometimes it is hard to discover what the truth is. How can you set it free when you don't know what it is? Is it really worth it to hurt someone over something you aren't sure about? Probably not.
Life is rough. It is really hard to figure out sometimes.

Update

I haven't written in a while, so I figured I should update you on school and everything.

First off, I think it is important to mention that I got through Core (the first phase of school), and now I'm in Adaptive (the second phase, there's three altogether). In order to pass Core you have to take a written test and floor test. I didn't stress about the floor test because we had to do simple things like tint applications and rolling perms. Easy. But what wasn't so easy was the written test. We basically had to memorize everything we learned in school so far. I stressed out for 2 weeks about it. My face broke out and I had like 4 mental break downs. But when it was all said and done I ended up getting a 97% on the written and 100% on the floor. I was a little upset that I didn't get 100% on both, but I was still pretty proud.

So now I am in Adaptive. I can work on guests. I like it better than Core because we are always doing hands on things. I had my first guest a couple weeks ago. I wasn't really nervous because I knew that the Learning Leaders would help me if I needed it. It did a woman's haircut, and I didn't do too bad. Go me!

There was a competition in school where the winners got to attend a hair show in Buffalo and assist backstage with Scott Cole and Linda Yodice. I worked extremely hard on it and with the help of my mentor, I did really good. It turns out only 2 people attempted it, 2 people won, and 3 ended up going. I didn't have any competition, so I won! (Although I think I would of won if I did have competition because I did put a lot of effort into it.)

I got back from the show last night. It was amazing. I got one on one time with Scott and Linda. They are the nicest people. They both made sure to make an effort of coming up to us and they made us feel welcome and important. When we got there on Sunday, we went straight to a salon. We jumped right in and began helping out. We ripped foils, swept up, and assisted whenever they needed us. It was great. Then we went to the hotel. We checked out the stage where we would be working at in the morning. We were impressed. The stage was pretty big and the models costumes were awesome. That night we decided to eat at the restaurant in the hotel. Turns out so did LMFAO (the guys that sing 'I'm in Miami Trick'). When they were done eating we followed them out of the restaurant into the lobby. The one girl who was with us asked for a picture and then we started to talk. They invited us to their show like 3 minutes away. To make a long story short, we got to party with them in their VIP room before and after the show and I danced with them on stage. It was awesome, the most fun I have ever had. I got about an hour of sleep that night. In the morning we went to help finish prepping the models. That was a lot of fun too. The show turned out pretty good. The models looked amazing, and Scott is the funniest guy to listen to. He cracks jokes and sings a lot. He is so cute. Linda is cute too, just not as crazy as Scott. Scott told us he has ADD and Dyslexia a couple times, lol.

So all in all, the trip was amazing. Sorry this entry was boring to read, I'm just not inspired to write anything. I felt an update was needed though.